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September 29, 2004
Actual entry?
*gasp* Surely not!
Today's been a loooong day. I'm sick of days. I just want to sleep through life. That isn't healthy, is it? Bah. Oh well.
Whilst I was at class yesterday mom changed my sheets and flipped my mattress. I couldn't tell if I fell asleep easier. I doubt it. But she sprayed my pillows with the smelly stuff and I LOVE that stuff. No clue what it is...don't ask. It just smells uber good.
School's lame. Boring without Cody and Suzen classes. I took my first test of the quarter today. I'm certain I fucked it up. The first two chapters I was good on but then the third about babies and conception and all that nasty shit...yeah, I kind of skipped over it. Guess what the last three pages of the test were about?! You guessed it! Baby stuff! *grumbles about hating kids some more*
Speaking of kids! I had to go "observe" a child today in the children's center while they were "playing" and take notes on it for psych class. We picked this chunky fellow who at the time of arrival seemed to be the most active kid. But shortly after we started watching him they broke out the cookies and the chunky kid was gone. No more playing. Eating. God damn chunky kid! So pretty much we made up stuff and stretched the truth a bit. The kid ended up spilling his milk on his napkin and started whipping it around at this asian girl beside him. It...was...hilarious...! I mean, milk slinging was definately not on our list of things we were supposed to observe, but funny all the same. *clicks tongue* Kids! Silly!
Hrm. My life is boring. I needs sleep. We're supposed to get up at 6 am tomorrow for an astronomy lab but if it's cloudy we can't go. I think I'd rather go in the morning than to stay until 5 tomorrow. I HATE THURSDAYS! Astronomy lab is a bitch. We're having a test sometime next week. What the hell have we been learning? I've got nothing except for Tony Blair, Bootes, Venus, and Tico! Surely the test is not on that...*grin* Another failed test! Fun! Hopefully I can get some notes together this weekend...hopefully.
Lost is on tonight! LOVE IT! GO WATCH IT! Actually, you might want to download the first part of the pilot first. You might be confuzzled. I like that Matthew Fox and Scott Wolf are making comebacks now. Yay for Party of Five!
Lyndsey's making me a new Squall layout! :D I need to make title things. But that seems like effort right now...so...I think I'll just go look for food. Not that we have any.
I want a pizza.
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:59 PM | Comments (4)
*mope*
I don't want to wake up tomorrow. I don't want to go listen to him drone on about nothing for hours. I don't want to take a stupid test. I don't want to get together with a stinky partner and go watch stupid kids play. I hate kids. *grumbles* I don't like working with partners. I don't like projects that include going somewhere new and doing something I don't exactly know how to do.
I guess I'll go to bed for 4 hours.
Posted by Nikalyn at 03:34 AM | Comments (0)
September 25, 2004
This is my 666th post
I WANT this.
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=14029&item=2272574072&rd=1&ssPageName=WDVW
Also slightly cute is this
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=14029&item=2272574983&rd=1&ssPageName=WDVW
I'm getting a VERY dirty vibe from that. But I guess it's just slutty me.
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=14029&item=2272575737&rd=1&ssPageName=WDVW
Awwww.
http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&category=14029&item=2265865898&rd=1&ssPageName=WD1V
0_0
But I want the first one!! lol. I would put it my car. Of course I would tape it to my window so I could take it off easily. But I would still display it. Awww. How cute and obsessive. :D
Posted by Nikalyn at 05:45 PM | Comments (2)
I have decided. Instead of trying to find out how to change that hideous blue in my extended entry. I'm just going to plan a new layout. lol. Getting rid of all blue will fix the problem eventually. Right now all I know is it will the original Nikalyn black and white colours and revolve around Squall. :D I've been in a large Squall mood lately and I think it's about time I have a cool video gamey feel to my site. I'm going to see if Lyndsey wants to create the main logos cause I really have no plan for what I want to see on it. Simple. That's all I know. Like two pictures and some text. That's all. She might have a better idea than me on it and she makes spiffy logos. :D
Well, my skanky butt needs a shower.
And yes, I am currently eating cream cheese icing OUT OF THE CAN. Booya!
Posted by Nikalyn at 05:06 PM | Comments (2)
September 24, 2004
ER's are the fucking devil. It's seriously how it is in the movies. If you have a fork sticking out of your head or a knife in your stomach you have to SIT there for at least 20 minutes before they take you back. Fucking ridiculous.
I fucking love you. I'd hate if anything ever happened to you. You scared the pants off me last night. *hugs you immensely* I LOVE YOU.
I just killed a spider. It was crawling on Amir. It was WHITE. I'm scared. We seriously need to clean the basement now because his guts ended up all over the carpet. 0_0 I'm freaked out.
Posted by Nikalyn at 05:14 PM | Comments (4)
September 23, 2004
That's it. I'm fucking staying home tomorrow. I'm about to die. I need sleep. Fuck my 9:30 Friday class. Fuck it.
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:22 AM | Comments (0)
September 22, 2004
Erm?
I don't like Superman. Smallville is...well, interesting. I guess. I think I'm just reaching for new tv shows to watch. Damn you wb for canceling Angel! Damn you to hell! P.S. Lois Lane is ugly.
It's been a shitty week. I can only imagine it will get worse. I hate Thursdays. I'm tempted to stay in bed. But then I'd miss out on lab and I'd be more lost seeing as I have no clue how to use that star chart. Bleh!
Who rocks it out? Me! Yeah, I know it. Bow down. *smirk*
You have no idea how much effort that took.
Um. What else? As you can tell, school is lame. I haven't got more than 3 hours of sleep each weekday. I'm dying. DYING. I say I'm going to take a nap but then I get to doing things and get too worked up to sleep. It's a vicious circle.
Tomorrow I need to dye my hair. My roots look icky. I'll have to do it myself though since Lyndsey will be at night class. Me? Dying my own hair?! I'll make a mess! lol.
The Thrills rock it out. They's Irish. ^_^
P.S. I miss you...
Posted by Nikalyn at 08:52 PM | Comments (0)
September 21, 2004
Yay! Suikoden IV comes out January 11th! Birthday present! :D
*does happy dance*
The remake of Wild Arms is supposed to come out in the fall. Whatever "fall" means. *dances for it as well*
Although, I still don't know why we NEED a remake...*grumbles* Oh well. I will buy it and love it all the same.
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:02 PM | Comments (4)
September 20, 2004
I have determined that I am very forgettable. I am such a horrible person, friend, girlfriend(when I was one), etc that I am so easy to put out of ones mind. Every experience, every moment, every day spent with me is easily forgotten in a blink of an eye.
It's a pretty depressing thought.
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:16 PM | Comments (0)
September 18, 2004
There's this hole inside. A deep void. I am not sure how to fill it or to erase its existence.
All I know is I'm lonely. I'm so alone...It's so dark.
I'm tired of feeling this way. And I really just want something to come along to cure this disease.
God damn it, where are you?
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:31 AM | Comments (4)
September 17, 2004
I'm sure glad I didn't die today coming home from school...
Or maybe not.
Posted by Nikalyn at 12:03 PM | Comments (0)
September 15, 2004
Story about a girl
I just want to take a minute to give MANY thanks to the people who decided to put an auto reload in Opera. THANK YOU!!! You know how much easier it is trying to feed those fucking kadoaties with the screen automatically refreshing? Plus my wrist isn't killing me anymore. It's so great! Actually, I like Opera a lot now. Piece of shit Windows keeps crashing on me every two seconds. Foof will be pleased to hear of my new love.
I was almost late for mythology today. I like my teacher. He's goofy but makes really good, deep points.
I caught a glimpse of Alan today. He looks good. :)
I sold my math book from spring quarter today. Got 20 bucks out of it. Not too horrible. So on the way home from class I stopped at Walmart and bought hairdye and 2 cheap cds, Linkin Park Meteora since my cd in my car is gay and won't play my burnt copy and Ryan Cabrera cause he's yummy and reminds me of Howie Day.
I want a lot of cds. Considering BOTH of my cd drives don't work...I don't think I'll be able to burn any new music for awhile. Val's cd is released Oct 5 so I'll have to con someone into buying that for me. My cd player in my car doesn't like playing burnt cds lately...and my Val cd is burnt. I also want the Say Anything cd and Maroon 5.
I'm so tired. I've gotten like 6 hours of sleep in the past three days. School life isn't getting along with me right now. I need a nap. I need to go to bed early. None of these seem to happen. It's like I don't have enough time for these things.
I also need food.
And a shower.
All of this seems like work right now.
Maybe a nap.
Posted by Nikalyn at 02:55 PM | Comments (0)
I drew a sheep
He's holding a heart-shaped balloon.
Click for bigger picture.
I'm a genius.
Posted by Nikalyn at 03:01 AM | Comments (1)
GROWL!
I'm so annoyed. So fucking frustrated. Seems like I can't do anything right tonight. I've been trying the past, fuck I have no idea how long it's been, all fucking night TRYING to get 1250 on Freaky Factory for the avatar. Did I get it? NO. FUCK NO. I got 1219!!!! Jesus fucking christ. I hate that fucking game with this HUGE FIREY PASSION THAT RUNS THROUGH MY BODY AND OOOZES OUT MY EYES IN EVIL STARES AND A STRING OF CURSE WORDS! I HATE IT!
My guild leader said she'd get it for me. I guess Krista told her how pissed off I was that I've been trying to get the thing for 2 weeks now in between kadoaties so she said she'd get it for me. However, I sent three scores today. So fuck that. She'd have to wait until 3am when the day resets and I'm sure she couldn't stay online THAT long.
Jesus christ. I know half of you have no idea what I'm talking about nor will respond to this incessant ranting but I'm pissed.
I still haven't gotten my WELL DESERVED angelpuss. And I keep fucking missing kadoaties. Today is NOT my night. And I need 75 kadoaties for the avatar and I have 21. It's going to take a few months I just know it. Ugh. :(
*sigh*
Anyway, school is fine so far. Lyndsey and I decided that our Astronomy teacher looks like Tony Blair but with glasses and without the accent.
We all know I love me some Tony Blair.
Posted by Nikalyn at 12:54 AM | Comments (0)
September 13, 2004
Wah!
I don't want to go to school mommy!
First class of the year tomorrow at 11:30am. Developmental Psych. Whee. That's waking up entirely too early and here I am awake at 5:19am. Lyndsey and I decided that the only way we're going to get back into our "normal" school sleeping patterns and to go to sleep at a "normal" time, we'd have to practically wear ourselves out. Go to sleep at the regular time, wake up when we're supposed to, struggle through the day, and go to bed "early."
Um. I had more to say...maybe? I's sleepy though.
Posted by Nikalyn at 05:28 AM | Comments (4)
September 11, 2004
For Lyndsey
I took this awhile ago but forgot to show her.
Look! I'm crazy mustache man! Give me some candy!!
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:07 PM | Comments (3)
Nikalyn dot com
Yup. That's right. I'm the proud owner of nikalyn.com. Go ahead. Try and click it. Amazing, isn't it?!
Many thanks to Foofy who snatched it up for me and then graciously handed it over. :D I never really thought about having a nikalyn.com but I'm glad I claimed it. It is me after all. I am THE Nikalyn. *nods* So there.
Um...I thought I had more of an entry than this. But I really have nothing of interest to say. So...yeah. End.
P.S. Someone buy me a new tv. Or get this one working. Thanks. :D
Posted by Nikalyn at 01:15 AM | Comments (7)
September 09, 2004
I'm Sorry?
Give me the fucking fire angelpuss and no one gets hurt!!!
15 dollars...?! FIFTEEN DOLLARS?!!! What the hell? Are those parking permits made out of gold? Are the parking spots lined with candy canes and rainbows?! What the hell is 15 dollars going towards?!
I'm officially ready for school. Besides the 15 dollar parking permit and a new id. Although...I don't know if they cost anything. Still not sure how I feel about school. Having a class with Lyndsey will be lots o fun.
I hope to meet a boy named Emerson. He plays guitar and on a good day, keyboards. His favorite foods include pizza, chicken, mushrooms, and Olive Garden and he's perfectly content sitting by the river and talking all night. He likes literature and poetry and dabbles in photography. He has a wide variety of musical tastes but doesn't knock me for my 80's, boyband, and whiney male vocalist obsessions. He can play most Dashboard songs at the flip of his wrist and will play "Hands Down" for me at any said time. He sings it pretty good also but he doesn't like to brag. He plays video games in his spare time and is a FF addict. He's going to school for computers so he's fluent in most computer...things. He has family in England and in the summer he'll take me on a European vacation and show me the sites. Whilst we're there we both pick up the cutest accents.
Haha. Am I asking too much? You think? :D Nah...
Posted by Nikalyn at 05:42 PM | Comments (3)
September 07, 2004
Where do I fit in the picture?
Or do I really fit at all?
Faire was fun. Fell in love with a man who sounded exactly like Dom. He, of course, doesn't know I exist. Bought three rings. Bought a snazzy cloak that is too heavy to wear in this weather. Got the hugest farmer's tan ever. Did I mention fall in love with a man who sounds exactly like Dom? He also plays with swords and has friends that look like Fabio and Harry Potter.
Stuffs messed up. I'm eternally sad. I've just gotten to the point where I might as well hide it. I'm having problems with my guild. They have royally fucked me over and I'm hating almost every person there. I want my prize. I want it now. And I will leave. Just screwed up...
I'm mad. Not sure if I have a right to be.
Playing FF 9 makes me feel sad. It's always been a favorite of mine. I could always connect with them. Feeling so lonely, so out of place. Just looking for their place in the world, their home. That's probably why I cried so hard when I first played it. Because everything worked out in the end. Everyone was happy and they found what they spent the whole 4 discs looking for. It gave me hope.
Why can't things touch me like that anymore? Have I grown into this shell? I'm eternally sad but I don't cry or show much emotion.
I'm fucked up. That's all I know.
School starts Monday. We need to go up to the school soon and do certain things. And buy books. I'm not sure how I feel about school. It's good I'll have something to do I suppose. I'm very saddened that I don't have Cody anymore. He's up in Columbus doing his own thing and very much forgot about me. Which was expected...he was "avoiding" me the whole month before he left. I guess chalk this up to another "online" friend as I'm sure I won't see him again. I also don't have a Suzen class this quarter. Everything is new and different and...I'm not sure how I feel about this.
I need renewal though. I need to be something other than this fucking mess.
I also need to work on getting a job. I desperately need one. I've been waiting until school started so I would know when I felt I could work. :(
Bleh. I don't care. I'm tired. I either don't sleep because I don't want to give in to it or I sleep too much because I don't want to face my life. Fucked, eh?
Ah, screw it. Night.
Posted by Nikalyn at 05:29 AM | Comments (3)
September 05, 2004
Testing take 2
Okay. Aspyre is back...isn't it?
Miss me? Leave me a message. :D
Posted by Nikalyn at 01:05 AM | Comments (6)