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August 27, 2004
Pictures
I'm trying to upload to photobucket. Although I fucking hate that thing. Sorry in advance if it fucks things up.
Where the hell is everyone? *glares*
Comment on my pictuars!
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Loki sleeps on the back of my computer chair whilst I type away...
Loki looking paranoid on my stereo. If you're observant you'll notice prints by a certain artist friend of mine. ^_^
Still on the stereo. I was taking the picture upside down. lol That's why she seems confused.
Another stereo pic. She's just too cute not to take pics of.
This is the fucking cutest picture she's ever taken! I luff her!
Me laying on my bed showing off my Frodo ring. ;) I really like this pic. It ended up somewhat artsy.
A clear shot of the ring for you curious folk. I've wore it for years. I never take it off. I've went through 2 chains. It's a family heirloom.
What every girl wants. Their own personal Elijah. :D
A portrait of Elijah painted and given to me by my Krista. :D I love it muchly.
Another portrait of Elijah by Krista. And a kitty portrait drawn by Lyndsey. God, why can't I be artistic!?
One of me. I look...confused.
Playing with my ring.
Emo glasses!!! HARDCORE!
This picture goes out to Rusty if he's looking at these. It's a crocomodile with an axe!
Another picture of me and the ring. I messed with the colours slightly.
My tattoo. You know you fucking want it. :D
Posted by Nikalyn at 12:44 AM | Comments (2)
August 26, 2004
Testing
Um. Are we actually allowed to blog now? It let me in...
Hrm...well, okay. Aspyre is moving and going through changes so if I don't post for awhile then that is the reason.
I'm sad. I have nothing of interest to post.
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:56 AM | Comments (0)
August 20, 2004
I want a guy just
I want a guy just like you...
But yet completely different.
Does this make sense?
I really do miss you sometimes...
Random gay picture:
Know where the necklace is from and I give you a cookie.
Posted by Nikalyn at 02:26 AM | Comments (0)
August 17, 2004
You're all going to hell
Just letting you know.
Foofy made me download Opera last night since IE kept trying to save my mpg's as mp2's and it was pissing me off. My site is a bit screwy in Opera. It makes me sad. Foofy's fixing it for me. I didn't like Opera at first but once I got all of the useless clutter deleted on the browser I liked it a bit better. Although, neopets is a little screwy in it too...but I do like it. I may have to use it. Maybe I'll use both. Give my life a bit of variety.
I got a new pair of shoes. Boot ish shoes actually. I like them a lot. 10 bucks at K-mart. They'll go good with the shirt Lyndsey bought me. The shirt fits but my boobs are too big. They make the buttons pop. Grr. So I'll have to wear a shirt under it. No problem. I always do that.
I was sitting here talking to mom and I brought up the two Dashboard shirts that I was going to buy with my refund check. I pulled up the pics of the shirts to show her and somehow she ended up buying them for me on her credit card. Whee! I can't wait to see them! :) I sure hope the hands down shirt fits. It's a girly shirt so it might be small on me...
We also got a 5 dollar pizza from Little Ceasars which I will happily munch on the rest tonight during Big Brother. :) It's a good night!
Posted by Nikalyn at 07:33 PM | Comments (5)
August 16, 2004
PLLLLLEEEEEEAAASSSEEEE sign up for neopets
PLLLLLEEEEEEAAASSSEEEE sign up for neopets for me! I only need one more person to do it for the paintbrush!
*begs*
*points down to the link*
I will love you FOREVER!!!
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:55 PM | Comments (0)
August 15, 2004
WHORING HERSELF
Okay. Do you have a free minute? Yes? Okay. Will you do me a favor?
http://www.neopets.com/refer.phtml?username=ajsangel21
Go there and make a neopet account. You don't have to play. Just go and make the account and you never have to look at the place again. I'm trying to get 10 referrals so I can see what kind of paintbrush they'll give me. I'm assuming something cheap like a basic colour or a christmas brush. Cheap asses at neopet couldn't give me a brush that I'd actually USE. So, I decided to try to get some people to sign up just so I could test this theory.
So yes, be a nice person and make an account for me? Pleeeeeeasssse? I currently have 8 referrals and need two more!!! JUST TWO! So if you CORY and and you DAVE signed up then I'd have enough! :) So...do it? Please? :)
Please? :) I love you.
Come one people! This is for scientific research! Do it for science!
Posted by Nikalyn at 09:48 PM | Comments (0)
Dreams about Chris Carrabba are
Dreams about Chris Carrabba are SO GOOOOOOOOOOD!
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:34 PM | Comments (1)
August 13, 2004
Absence
*looks around*
*looks around again*
*blinks*
:-/
Posted by Nikalyn at 02:26 AM | Comments (3)
August 12, 2004
Picture post. Dial up beware
I'm doing a picture post. You will look and comment. :)
Let's get started shall we?
Narcissus being lazy on the basement steps
Tyler and Loki when they think no one is watching
The overhead light above my computer. I thought it looked artsy here.
When I get bored I often write on myself
I often write about how I'm feeling...(This was written on my left palm. I messed with the colours and now it looks like I have a skin disease)
And you're measuring your minutes by a clock that's blinking eights!
THE GOOD WATER. I finally found a place that sells it around here! If you ever hear me referring to "The good water" this is what I mean. If you know a place that sells it BUY ME A MILLION BOTTLES.
You shall fear my awesome pj pants.
Eyes that see into infinity. (I have horrible eyes. And eyebrows.)
Messed with the colour. I think it's freaking awesome.
Because I never post a picture of myself taken by digital camera because I think I look like shit...
Awww...so sleepy...
I actually look something like pretty.
And...DONE!
I actually did a "photo shoot" today. I'll post the results later.
Posted by Nikalyn at 02:14 AM | Comments (4)
August 11, 2004
I officially give up. It's
I officially give up.
It's never going to happen.
It's sad. But I've come to terms with it. I think.
Whatever happens happens. But I'm tired. And I'm tired of fighting.
It hurts to hang in there for so long and never see results, ya know? Sometimes you wonder what was the point in it? Why did you even fight in the first place? Did you really believe there was going to be fire works and parties and love when it was all over? If you did you were fucking lying to yourself in order to make the pain bearable. Everything's a lie. Sugar coated to go down smoothly.
The one thing I fought for all this time is no closer than it was a year ago. Why did I even try? Was it all the experience I received along the way? All the pain I went through? All the pain that envitably makes me stronger? Fuck that. I've had enough throughout my years.
I'm tired. I'm done.
And I'm so fucking in love with you.
Posted by Nikalyn at 12:37 AM | Comments (0)
August 08, 2004
An Explanation
Okay, just because I got questions on my hostile-ness(pretty sure not a word) I will attempt to vent and say all the things that have been bothering me.
My kind message of "Fuck you" did not go out to one single person. Nay, instead it goes out to a lot of people and every situation going on in my life currently that I just want to kick the shit out of and make them go away. So, if you were offended I'm sorry, you shouldn't be. None of it went out to anyone in particular. Now let's get down to business here.
Problem 1: An immature teenager decide to exploit and make fun of my site/webcam/poetry on his page mainly because, well he could. I don't know the person and had no clue why they'd want to attack me. It came to a huge surprise to me as I'm not mean nor hostile to anyone I come across on the web. As my friends and fellow chatters will agree, I'm very friendly and helpful to everyone. I don't want to get much into the matter as I don't want to cause a fuss anymore than I have. After a pm and an email to the person he took my stuff down from his site. He did however put up my email on his "Hate section" and began to pull it apart. Calling me a coward and many other things. He claimed if I didn't want to have my stuff made fun of then to not display them on the Internet. Okay, tell this to all the other millions of people out there with things published on the web. No one is looking to be harassed. This is my personal site. He called me a coward because I didn't post a message on his forum about it instead I sent him a pm and an email about it. Well, I tried replying on the board about me but he had it locked to all people but admins. This was also the case with a few other boards on his forum. So...I couldn't address it through there. Plus, why would I need to address his forum? No one was even signed up for it besides him and I. It was a matter between himself and I therefore I sent a message the only method available.
I have no beef with this person. I don't know them. It was just rude and uncalled for. I respect people for trying to be funny and entertain but I really didn't want to be apart of that. But anyway, I'm letting everything die out. But this was a main reason of my aggrevation. I'm fine with everything. I just don't want to be a part of it.
Oh by the way, he also accused me of flooding his forum with messages or whatever they do to flood forums. I have no idea how to do this. I'm not a geek. I don't claim to be one. I have no clue how to do things to people's forums. I admit I'm "un l33t". Just wanted to clear that up. It wasn't me. Blame someone else for that one. Sorry.
Problem 2: My family is a bit at arms against each other right now. My mother is mad at my aunt. My aunt is mad at my mother. My grandmother is mad at my mother. It's a big mess. Apparently because of this I probably won't be attending that waterslide birthday party tomorrow. My dad has been unfriendly towards me for the last month and I'm not sure why he's mad at me this time...It's just a big mess family wise. Not that it always isn't. Oh I wish I had a normal family life...
Problem 3: My computer has been acting screwy for the past few days. Mainly spyware shit that everytime I think I've cleared it all something pops up out of nowhere and smacks me. Yesterday I had some that not only made 50 windows pop but also made that damn ICQ "uh oh" sound play. 0_0 I'm also running low on memory. Too much music and tv shows on my computer I'm afraid. This leads into problem 4...
Problem 4: Been trying to download episodes of "Dead like me" in a lame attempt to cheer myself up. I've downloaded episodes 1-7 but episode 8 is nowhere to be found. Okay, yes, it is found but doesn't have any completed seeds to connect to. :-/ Bit tornado is being an asshole lately. I'm not getting good speed at all. I'm now currently trying to download the whole season just so I can get the episodes I'm missing and the ones that aren't hosted on Suprnova. It's only going 17 kb/s so needless to say it's estimated finishing time is about a week from now. :-/ I keep it going just hoping I'll connect to a fast person. Not looking good...You'd think that being connected to 59 users would allow the damn thing to go fast...Uh no. I'm also running out of blank cds.
Problem 5: I'm fucking lonely as hell. I'm very happy for Lyndsey and am very glad she's having fun. Truth be told it's very lonely here by myself. After you've lived with someone for so long and have gotten used to their presence day after day it's hard to not have that anymore.
Problem 6: He hasn't talked to me in almost a week. Although I imagine I'm being stupid and making a whole bunch of nothing into something, I'm still saddened by it a lot. He's been online a lot lately as well. Still haven't talked to me. We were supposed to spend a lot of time together this month since Lyndsey was going to be gone so much. He said we'd hang out a lot so I wouldn't be so lonely and bored. Yup. Hasn't happened yet. I suppose he's just busy with getting ready for his new life upstate. :( I just feel like I'm getting the cold shoulder a bit.
Problem 7: My tv was broken for two days. Well, it's still broken. It makes a buzzing noise. But the cable box was out for two days. Not sure what was wrong with it. Fixed now. Luckily! In time for "Big Brother" and "Six Feet Under" today.
Problem 8: The electricity went out SEVERAL times today. It was a fucking annoyance resetting everything...time after time after time!
Problem 9: I need a job. I know it. I admit it. I know it's time. I just...don't know how to do it. Well, I mean I do. But it's like no one will hire you if you don't have experience but I can't get experience unless I get hired. Make sense? No. It doesn't. I'm sad. I just want to get in the workplace and get it over with. I want to have my own money that I can spend on whatever I want when I want. I just know it needs to happen and the thought absolutely depresses me. I don't want to be a slave to society and "THE MAN" and corporate America. Ugh...
Problem 10: This fucking BOREDOM. As many would say, it's one's own fault for being bored. I agree, it mainly is my fault I guess. But there's literally nothing to do than sit in front of this computer and do dumb things that really don't matter. (Note: I'm glad I saved this as a draft right then because I accidently closed this window) Although sitting here has allowed me to get caught up with old friends and to reaquaint with those friends that I didn't talk too much to. I'm glad I'm chatting on a daily basis with Krista again. I really do miss her being around. I'm glad our neopets guild has brought us closer together. :) And this leads into problem 11...
Problem 11: People harassing my friends. I suppose this falls under the first problem as well. I've noticed an increase in people harassing and talking bad about a few of my online friends. Rusty has had a few instances lately regarding stupid fucking people messing with him and his site. Krista and Brea have had to deal with an ex member(who I never liked in the first place, let me tell you) who got mad because he couldn't get his DONATIONS back from the guild after he left and therefore decided to make up lies and harass the guild.
People really just need a life...let me tell you. I mean, I don't have anything close to a fucking life but god damn, I don't go out of my way to make people feel like shit to feel better about it. Grow the hell up.
I also wrote a poem about you. It brought back so many memories. It made me sad. I miss you.
Well, I'm going to wrap this up finally. It's 5 am and I feel like Jay Z and his 99 problems. Okay, I'm short a few...but still. If you read all this bless your little heart. I love you. No one seems to care much anymore...
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:57 AM | Comments (3)
August 07, 2004
Fuck you.
Fuck you.
Posted by Nikalyn at 03:24 AM | Comments (4)
August 06, 2004
My new man
Introducing Callum Blue. My new man. Fucking gorgeous.
He plays Mason on "Dead like me." I'd heard of this show but never paid much attention to it. Mainly because I don't have showtime...*grrrs* Krista and I were talking about hot British men that we love today and this show came up. She went on about the show and Mason and I was intrigued. Therefore, since I have no life, I downloaded the first two episodes.
I'm...in...love...
He's so gorgeous. And funny. And witty. And slightly of the bad boy variety.
The show is about grim reapers and transporting souls and death and all that lovely stuff. Mason killed himself trying to reach the ultimate high by putting a drill to his head. (Pi reference, anyone?)
Anyway, he's yummy. And British. And I'm in looooooove.
He reminds me of Doyle, Glenn Quinn, like mad. That's a GREAT thing. I needed someone to fill that Doyle void.
And no, you can't have him. Mine.
Posted by Nikalyn at 02:25 AM | Comments (1)
August 05, 2004
Congrats lipitor add for being
Congrats lipitor add for being the 2000th comment. Oh lord...how sad. Spam was my 2000th comment. *hangs head low*
Seriously now, buy those shirts for me. I will give you presents of my undying love and affection. Seriously...I promise!
Posted by Nikalyn at 12:03 AM | Comments (0)
August 04, 2004
Right. I'm having a BAD
Right. I'm having a BAD day so far today.
I want these three shirts. Badly. These are the things I was going to buy at my Dashboard concert but left my money in the car. THESE ARE THE CONCERT SHIRTS!!!
I want them so bad...
:(
Those are the main two things I want.
This is the hoodie I wanted. But I really don't have to have it now that I have the other one. It's so pretty though. :)
http://www.dashboardconfessional.com/merch/showdetl.cfm?&DID=7&Product_ID=265
Okay...content with having the two shirts.
Early, early birthday present? *nudges* *begs* *licks*
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:48 PM | Comments (2)
August 03, 2004
For a lack of a title
Today went over well. Lyndsey seemed to like my lame presents. This is good. We drove around and listened to Spice Girls and BackStreet Boys and 5ive. And let me tell you, 5ive's version of "We will rock you"? Fucking hilarious. *grin* Anyway! We walked around the mall but there's really just nothing there when you have two dollars to your name. :-/ We then went to Olive Garden. It was good although it wasn't to Lyndsey's standard. She didn't get the dessert she wanted and the good sauce we get with the calamari tasted...weird. :( Plus, the server was just way too eager to serve us.
We later saw "The Village." It was alright...different I suppose. It wasn't scary. And it wasn't as full of twists as everyone was making it out to have. Like I said, it was different. Have to give M. Night credit for that one. I also love how subtle his appearance in the film was. Through the reflection of the medical cabinet door? Greatness. :) It had a sucky ending though. I despise endings that just...end. If that makes sense?
At around 11:30 Lyndsey decided she wanted a birthday cake since neither of us have had a birthday cake in a long while. (By the way, Walmart has a book of decorated cakes and someone really really needs to get me a Sam and Frodo and Gollum birthday cake in January) She decided we were going to go get a plain cake and decorate it. We did. It didn't go over well. The cake is just a big smear of icing. Oh well. Happy birthday! Hah.
Speaking of birthday, weirdest thing...my grandma is having her birthday on the 7th...I think? Anyway, guess where she's having this party? The Parkersburg waterslide! Wild isn't it? And if that isn't crazy enough apparently our whole freaking family is coming to this waterslide/cook out birthday party. My whole family never does things together. We get together for Christmas but usually some people can't show up. But seriously, as I understand it, EVERYONE is coming. This is too...odd. I'm taking the camera. Just, you know, for if grandma goes down the waterslide...
I've been semi productive the past few days. I got all of Lyndsey's birthday stuff bought and "wrapped" and was even creative enough to colour her a picture out of our Powerpuff girl coloring book that was all birthday like. I'm lame, yes.
I've began writing three or so new poems. They might be ready for reading sometime this week. I also took about 40 new pictures of myself in various hats and holding various household items. I was bored...They're funny though, I promise. I'll probably put them in a humorous album like I did with the Joey sketch.
I picked up an application from BP cause my dad told Lyndsey a couple weeks ago that they were hiring. Although when I picked it up the lady said they were just taking applications and not necessarily hiring. :-/ I filled it out but it's pretty damn empty considering I have no experience. It sucks that in order to get a job you need experience but to get experience you need a job...quite the conundrum. *tilts head* Oh well. I'll take it down tomorrow. Who knows what may happen. Sometime soon I hope to pick up applications from other places such as the mall, maybe? Retail places only. I can't work for fast food. Ever. I would depress the hell out of myself. Anyway...
I miss Cody. Haven't talked to him in a few days. I always seem to miss him. Damn my fucked up sleeping schedule. Hopefully we'll get together soon and spend a few days hanging out before he moves up to the big city. *sniff*
I still want to go shopping like mad, yo. Seriously. Not joking here. Mom said I could use the scholarship money for school clothes and such if my deadbeat father didn't buy them for me. I'm hoping he buys them for me though. I'd really like to keep that money around for other things. I'll probably ring him up tomorrow and see what he says. I wonder if he got my email? Probably. Just ignoring me, like always. If nothing else I want the black and white striped shawl thing...I really do. I'd be SO cool in that thing. I promise.
I want books to read. The library is closed to the public for some type of construction. There goes that idea... :-/ I wish I had money to actually purchase books.
Okay, well this is going on a bit too long. I didn't know all this stuff was going on. How eventful I am. Anyway, there's a few things I need to get done before "bed" so I'm going to end this. Night.
P.S. You know, from listening to myself singing "Everytime" by Ms. Britney Spears(Thank you, Cody) I could have made a rather good pop singer. You know, if I were a lot more attractive and could do snazzy dance moves.
P.S.S I found me another love lorn male singer to listen to. I've been listening to too many of these guys lately.
Posted by Nikalyn at 02:01 AM | Comments (1)
August 02, 2004
Happy Birthday Lyndsey
Happy Birthday Lyndsey
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:48 AM | Comments (1)
August 01, 2004
I want to go shopping
I want to go shopping for clothes.
:(
I'm lonely.
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:54 AM | Comments (2)