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February 28, 2003
Slightly bruised and broken
Like I've stated previously, I'm dead. Physically dead. I'm so exhausted. I don't know why. I guess just a bad combo of stress, homework, and lack of sleep. I'm spacing out. I can't concentrate on anything. I played my game today. I played it for about 10 minutes and got so confused about the damn controls that I turned it off. That game has the most fucked up controlling system in the whole world! Maybe its just because I'm tired but I ended up turning on the main menu like 12 times in a row. I ended up just getting sick of it and turning it off. So since that game was not to my satisfactory I popped in Final Fantasy 7 so I could finally beat it. I put in the memory card, no previous game data. Uh...put in other memory card, no previous game data. UGH!!! I had no idea what happened to my save file and I was freaking out. Somehow it ended up being upstairs. I don't know if my brother stole the card or just needed a memory card but...it was upstairs. After this episode I didn't want anywhere near a damn playstation.
I had a nice quote but its up in my folder...so...it can wait until tomorrow.
I need to do so much this weekend. I know I always say that...but maybe this weekend I'll actually accomplish something. *sighs*
So dead...so tired...
The darkness takes me captive, I crumble under its spell...
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:25 PM | Comments (4)
February 27, 2003
Trophy Display of Bruises
I'm sleepy. Ugh. I haven't got a lot of sleep lately. I guess its because of the contest. That and so much homework. *shoots self* This contest seriously is exhausting me though. I mean, I've never EVER won anything before and I am so determined to make this contest go down in the record books. I've done so much compaigning and hard work to get ahead. Man, if anyone thinks that I have it easy they are quite wrong. Yes I might be in the lead but all those votes were earned! Whew.
I'm kind of concerned about what the opinion of the girls are about me. I don't want them to be upset or hate me...but that can't be helped sometimes in competitions. I try not to sound arrogant or conceited. I want to be the contestant that people are happy to see win just because they are so nice and deserve to be happy. I wonder if they view me that way?
I'm nice. Right?
And I do deserve happiness after all the crap I've been through.
Speaking of that, man, someone sure does LOVE going to bars don't they? Drunk much? *snickers* Okay, that just put me down a few points in the nice category. But if you only knew the story! If only!
Tonight the only homework I have is math and I probably won't do it until later. Half the class was out today due to group pics so it more than likely won't be due tomorrow. Hrm...but then again. Maybe I should do some of it tonight. Hehehe.
By the way I bought a new video game. Haven't played it though because of the insanity of this week. I'll play it sometime this weekend and tell you all about it. I heard bad reviews but...hell I have different taste then all of them anyway.
Oooh and I met the hottest boy today! He works with my mother and she has been raving about him for weeks. Today was the first day I ever met him...okay...not so much met him as stared at his back from afar. His name is Jon and is the cutest little punk/geek. Oh god, totally my type. He has glasses and is really skinny and...I think he's short. LoL. Totally my type. *sighs*
The hottest of the hot!
Kuja says: Hotter than Elijah?
Miss Elijah Wood 2003? says: That's a hard one
Miss Elijah Wood 2003? says: They're close that's for sure.
Oh if only mom had introduced us...if only...I looked nice today too. :)
Yes, I admit it. I luv my Amadeo. :)
Posted by Nikalyn at 07:01 PM | Comments (4)
Words of Rememberance
Just some funny/cute convos that happened today (depends on when I am posting this...so it probably was yesterday or the day before) Sorted out by names.
Cam:
Cam says:
I got a nike hat rim thing in my eye today
Cam says:
its a long story lol
Miss Elijah Wood 2003? says:
lol
Miss Elijah Wood 2003? says:
I thought you said you had a nika hat
Miss Elijah Wood 2003? says:
I was like what?
Miss Elijah Wood 2003? says:
I dont make hats
Cam says:
lol
Cam says:
i need something to drink
Miss Elijah Wood 2003? says:
*gives you something to drinK*
Cam says:
hmmm
Cam says:
thank you
Miss Elijah Wood 2003? says:
welcome
Cam says:
hmm i wonder if there are any beers here...
Cam says:
good ole canadian beer
Miss Elijah Wood 2003? says:
lol well I dont have them
Miss Elijah Wood 2003? says:
I'm not from canadia
Cam says:
Canadia?
Later that day...
ApprenticeAmadeo: LMAO
ApprenticeAmadeo: hahahahahaha
The Magess: hahahah its even funnier cause he's canadian
The Magess: lol
G33kster:
G33kster: where the hell is kari :-(
The Magess: who?
G33kster: this girl I met at school
The Magess: hrm
G33kster: she's a lesbian so no its not what your thinking...
The Magess: lol
The Magess: okay
G33kster: oh told her to vote on you
G33kster: she thinks your cute :-P
The Magess: awwww
The Magess: really?
The Magess: yay!
The Magess: I love lesbians who think I'm cute!
Foofy:
Luc says:
*nods*
Luc says:
I'm like crazed man...or a man who is crazed
Luc says:
I sit here and ask everyone to vote
Luc says:
paranoid as hell too
foofy says:
hehe
Luc says:
sometimes I twitch...
And the best for last...my favoritest person!
Amadeo:
ApprenticeAmadeo: give me a good title
The Magess: hey look its my name in japanese
The Magess: http://www.artzbox.com/freenames/n/nikki.jpg
ApprenticeAmadeo: lmao!
The Magess: wha? it is! oh wait...no thats not a good title
The Magess: lol
ApprenticeAmadeo: LMAO
ApprenticeAmadeo: my title "Hey look it's my name in japanese"
The Magess: *wonders why her hotmail put an email from rusty in her junk mail*
The Magess: :-\
ApprenticeAmadeo: hahahaha
The Magess: well its a hotmail address....so...uh...why would they think thats junk?
The Magess: are they dissing themselves?
Remember to vote for me!! :D
I had a weak moment this morning but now I'm pumped up again. *dances*
Posted by Nikalyn at 06:45 PM | Comments (0)
February 26, 2003
Losing is such sweet sorrow...
I'm losing. :( I'm very sad. I ran out of people to ask to vote for me. Ah well I guess I shouldn't of got my hopes up. If anyone hasn't voted for me go and do it. If you would like to contribute to my cause you can do one or all of the following:
1.) Post a link and instructions for voting on your blog/site (telling about the contest and hopefully they will vote for the best canidate)
2.) Asking all your friends to take part in the voting and maybe vote for me ;)
3.) Spreading the word about the contest in a chat or forum you post at.
4.) Anything else you can think of that might help me
I need your guys help horribly! My site does not get enough traffic for me to have a lot of votes. I am going out on a wire here... Maybe with all your help I can get some more votes. Remember, I would vote for you if you asked me to...actually I think I have voted for some of you in blogging contests and stuff.
Help me win? Please? I love you all.
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:10 AM | Comments (2)
February 25, 2003
Okay, NOW vote!
I still don't think the votes are exactly correct but it's okay. I am winning at the moment and I don't want to sound like I'm selfish or arrogant. I am sooooo excited. I have never won anything before! Winning this would mean so much to me. I know it might sound trite but...yeah...it would really make me so happy!
I hope I win.
*crosses fingers*
I would do that boy so proud I swear. :)
If I haven't already told you the link go here and vote for me! Click on the pink banner, scroll down the page, and vote for Nikalyn. Thank you all in advance. You all rock! :)
Oh and...if you want to gain me some more support feel free to post my link on your blog. Grrl you have the most traffic of all of us! (Wonders if you'll even see this...)
Good luck to everyone in the competition. All of us Elijah fans rock in my eyes! (If any of them happen to stumble across this page)
I'll keep you guys updated!
Paid for by the commission to elect Nikalyn as Ms. Elijah Fan 2003
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:20 PM | Comments (1)
Voting's up.
I'm kinda of hesitant to ask you people to vote now though. Two of us just voted for me here at school and it didn't show a difference in my results. I'm scared its not working properly. I had 5 votes before I voted and I should have 7 now. Hrm. You can check it here, if it shows a difference in votes go ahead and vote for me. If not, DON'T VOTE! I don't want to waste votes if the thing isn't working correctly. I will message everyone when I get home or update this later and update everyone.
*crosses fingers for a win*
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:04 AM | Comments (1)
February 24, 2003
I squeeked today
I squeeked today. That kind of squeek one would do when they're happy. Have you ever done that before? Its pretty fun actually. Highly entertaining. I never knew I had it in me to squeek. :)
Why did I squeek you ask? Because I was happy! I didn't know that Tahnee had even written anything about why she chose us as finalists until I came home and read a comment about it in my blog. I was like "What is that girl talking about?" So I went to the site to see if voting had started and I saw what Tahnee had wrote about me.
It was soooooooooooooooooo sweet! :D It seriously made my day. Lookie what she wrote about me.
"Ok. I'm going to be completely honest here... I'm seriously rooting for this girl. Enough can't be said about her. She's got that "certain something" that really impressed me. Her application was, in my opinion, the best of the bunch! She's extremely articulate, cares about the man behind the actor, and expresses her admiration through nothing but kindness and humility. This girl's got what it takes, and I'm honored to have her in my pageant. Plus, she's tall like me and still loves Elijah! Enough said. ;) "
Awwww....
This was the reason for my squeeks of joy today. :)
I don't know if Tahnee comes here or not...but if she does, thank you so much for your kind words! They really did make me happy! I'm glad I make you and Elijah proud. :) I feel very honored.
Just a sidenote, I thought it was funny.
[Bratty freaking annoying niece comes down into room]
Niece: "Turn down that loud noise down, its loud!" (refering to my loud Matchbox 20 music)
Me: "Uh...no."
[She shuts up and bothers cat for a few minutes.]
[I go and shut off music, intending to go clean.]
Niece:"Kiki, thanks for turning that music off."
Me: "Uh....in that case...."
[Turns on loud "devil" music and cranks her winamp to 60% loudness]
I hate that kid...
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:27 PM | Comments (4)
February 23, 2003
Yay!!!!!
I made top ten! I am so happy! I've never even come close to winning anything before. *dances* I hope I win. :) Lookie I even get a nice plaque! *points to left side of blog* I will keep you all informed of when the voting starts. When the time comes to vote will you all vote for me? Please?
As your Ms. Elijah Fan I will clean up the parks and make the world safe for bunnies and small forest animals. I will also attended every Elijah Wood movie and sit firmly in the front row not leaving for bathroom breaks and/or popcorn runs. I will also give candy to little children and kiss babies. As your Ms. Elijah fan I will be the best Elijah fan that I can be and try my best to make all other Elijah fans proud. Thank you. *bows as the crowd starts cheering*
Vote Nikalyn Miss Elijah Fan 2003!
Posted by Nikalyn at 07:38 PM | Comments (4)
February 22, 2003
Oh god! Oh God!!
So many entries. I know no one will read them all. But I can't help it. Its so funny! Oh god. My sides! It hurts. It hurts!
http://members.shaw.ca/wpgclan/whatyouare.htm
Oh god. Thank you Rusty for finding that! LMAO I was searching his site today and I found it. My sides...I'm dying.
Click for some of my funnier ones. (Some explicit language)
I am: A notorious Nintendo 64 who loves to taste lesbians
I am: A malignant bicycle who loves to explore animals
I am a godly Vikin Prince who loves to hoard blow up dolls
I am a slam dancing punk who loves to fist fuck beavers
I am a malignant salad buffet who loves to hump laterns
I am a masturbating fish stick who loves to grope hookers
I am a sexy boytoy who loves to dejuice penises
I am a busty porn star who loves to fuck hot bitches
Posted by Nikalyn at 08:51 PM | Comments (6)
I've fallen from your sight
Mom was mad at me today. Apparently she came down here before she went to work...that would probably be about 7ish or 8ish and told me to clean the house and be ready to go shopping by the time she got home. Okay, point of infomation: I went to bed last night at 3:30. Meaning, I was totally dead. She said I was talking to her and responded to her questions. Do I remember any of this? No. I am totally obilivious to this whole conversation. I didn't even know it took place! Hrm...So anyway, she comes home from work and is PISSED at me for not doing the things I said I'd do in my semi-somnambulant state this morning. Hey, I would have done it. If I had even remembered the damn convo taking place. *shrugs* So she was pissy for about 20 minutes...
We headed out to Marietta today with the main purpose of buying me pants. Since Marietta is the happenin' place to be, we ended up going a million places. First we went to a thrift/flea market store and I bought a wind up penguin for 15 cents! Okay, it doesn't work properly but cmon, its a penguin! Next we went to a clothes place and bought me pants. I'm not completely satisfied with these ones. All the ones I tried were either too big or too small. Ugh. So by like the 12th pair I was sick of trying them on so I just grabbed a pair and ran with it. I also bought a black shirt to go with it. While I was at the register I found some really nice black pjs. I've always wanted black silky pjs. So I bought them. I rock so hard. :D
Next, we went to this Dollar store next door. But they had nothing of interest. We then headed across the parking lot to the hardware store because apparently my mother had a "vision" last night in a dream and has the greatest idea on what to redecorate the living room like. *raises eyebrow* We never ended up getting anything. Man, did they have some ugly wall paper.
Our last stop of the day was to the grocery store. And you'll never guess what I found!!!! My good water!!!! Whooooooo! However, they only had one bottle of cherry. So I decided to venture out and get some strawberry melon. I think I had that kind waaaaaay back in the day. I can't remember. We got so much good food today. :) Going to the grocery store rocks!
Jess and I's song is also now on mp3.com. The file is smaller and the connection is faster. If you haven't already downloaded it, do it now! What are you waiting for? It can be found here. Its the first song, of course.
*yawns* Shopping makes me sleepy. I need to take a shower as well. I feel skanky. Then I'm gonna slip into my sexy black silky pjs and....entertain myself I guess. No one will ever appreciate me in my sexay lingerie. *sniffs*
Well...I'm gonna go now. Every person that was talking to me has stopped. Apparently I got boring all of a sudden. *shrugs* I still love me.
Update: Never mind about the sexy clothes. All the bottoms fit but not the tops. We're gonna take them back tomorrow and get bigger ones. Damn my boobs!!!!
Posted by Nikalyn at 06:03 PM | Comments (4)
Introducing, your candidate
Ha! I'm finally on the list! W00 Hoo buddy! *dances* Wanna see my profile? Go here and click on my name. I think I have the longest answers. :) Oh well. That's me. I have to be long winded and exact. I hope I win. Oh god, I'm the biggest dork in the world.
Anyway, I've been working on a few projects the last couple days and I hope to complete them soon.
My kitty ripped the flesh from my leg. Damn, I knew I should have named her Pooky.
Posted by Nikalyn at 01:26 PM | Comments (1)
February 21, 2003
Extra! Extra!
Cause you know how I am your main source for entertainment news. *winks*
This just in:
The new Dumbledore has just been revealed for the new Harry Potter Flick coming this fall. Of course, you all know Richard Harris who previously played the Hogwarts Headmaster died last year from a long time bout with cancer. The actor chosen to replace him is none other than Michael Gambon! (says this like she knows who the hell that is) There was talk about such famous names as Christopher Lee, Ian McKellen, and Peter O'Toole seizing the part however Gambon snatched the role! Yay for him! *gives him a round of applause, again acting like she knows who that is*
He doesn't look like Dumbledore...
But then again...
Technology does wonders these days.
For more info about this exciting news story. Click here.
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:24 PM | Comments (3)
The hint of these new tears are sharp
We had school today. However, it was a 2 hour delay. I protest against two hour delays. So....I didn't go. I mean. We haven't had school in a whole week. And then they decide we need to go on a Friday?! A Friday?! Hell we never do anything on a Friday anyway and add a two hour delay ontop of that? I think nothing will come of that my friend.
But...don't get me wrong. My time at home today so far hasn't been the greatest. I woke up at 8:30 because I had one of those dreams again. I don't know if its just me or what....but have you ever had a dream where you get so emotional that it happens in real life? I will have a dream where in it something so horrible happens that I cry in the dream. Because of this I wake myself up and realize that I'm crying in the present as well. Ack. Well that happened this morning. I was having a dream, and in it I was crying my eyes out. My sobs woke me up, and I spent 10 minutes crying in real life recovering from the dream.
Today I am determined to get some things done though. I've been lazy for a week now. Hehehe. There's a bunch of things I've been meaning to do and I am determined to do them tonight. Go me! I hope I can keep this attitude. :)
I have yet to be added to the Ringbearer list of candidates for the Miss Elijah Contest. See, I'm faced with a bit of a problem here. I want to email her and ask her if she even got my application cause we all know how gay my computer can be at times. Maybe the application didn't even get sent. I would like to email her and ask because the deadline for applications are on Saturday. However, she is swamped with email so I don't want to seem rude and hassle her about it. Maybe my application is in there with all her millions of emails. Can you see the dilemma here? Well...I did end up emailing her this morning. A nice email stating I was sorry if I was bothering her...however, it says her email account is full. So....errr...I guess she really has a lot of email. Oh well...if I get added I get added. If it didn't go through or whatever I guess there's always next year. *sighs* I'll probably attempt and send the email later anyway.
Well I'm gonna get to work on all this stuff I need to do. Hope you all had a good day. :)
And everything else is irrelevant, to the story so far...
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:43 AM | Comments (3)
February 19, 2003
Mwhahahahahahaha
No school tomorrow! Hahahahahaha! This is like the best week ever! *is very happy* *dances* *dances more*
I heart snow
I heart snow
I heart snow
I heart snow
I heart snow
Although this week isn't fun for lynz. But its okay cause we'll come rescue her tonight if he doesn't leave.
I heart snow.
I heart snow.
I heart snow.
I think the aspyre login page clashes. Is it just me? Oh well.
I heart snow.
I heart snow.
W00t!!! I'm holding out for no school tomorrow as well. Cmon. Let's make it a full week. What would we get accomplished if we went to school on a Friday anyways???
I heart snow.
I heart snow.
I heart snow.
Okay, I'm done now.
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:39 PM | Comments (5)
February 17, 2003
Snow Snow everywhere!
Brrrrrrrrr! It sure is cold outside. But hey that's because we have about 10 inches of snow! Yay!!!
Nikalyn says:
We have 10 inches of snow so I went out and threw snow balls
Cam says:
Wow, 10 inches. I wish we had that little. LOL
Nikalyn says:
lol
Nikalyn says:
its a lot for us
Nikalyn says:
shut up
Cam says:
Like 16 feet here
Cam says:
LOL
Nikalyn says:
*scoffs* screw you, canadian punk
Snow is great. It did suck though that today we had the day off despite the damn snow. Today is fing President's Day ya know. Ugh. I'm really pulling for tomorrow as a snow day since the snow is still bad everywhere. Roads are real icy and such. Well....at least they are on my street. Its not a good reference here because they don't do anything to our streets. But ya know...
I went outside and played in the snow today. Yay! It was fun. I threw snowballs at things. I hit a pole, and my dog, and the house, and a tree. Ha. I'm a dork. It was kinda boring playing in the snow by yourself but I survived. The snow has a bunch of layers of ice on top of it so...it kinda cuts into your skin when you step through it. Ouch. So needless to say I was only out there for about 20 minutes. It was cooooooold. Hopefully no school tomorrow *crosses fingers*
Oooh oooh!! I signed up for the Miss Elijah Fan 2003 contest. Hooray! I'm really excited about it actually. My chances are probably slim to none to win but hey I hope to have a lot of fun trying. ;) Info about the contest can be found at this very spiffy Elijah site, Ringbearer I'm not on the candidate list yet but hopefully I will be added in the near future. Hrm. I'm very excited! You guys know how much I adore Elijah. :) Cross your fingers for that as well.
I picked up my issue of Gear magazine Saturday at Kroger. The nice edition with my man smacked on the cover. There's some really nice pictures in there. I enjoyed it a lot. I also liked the article. The guy who wrote it did a very nice job. However, the article might have been out of date because it said Elijah was still with that one chick. Ack. Oh well. Still a great magazine purchase.
I miss my girl. She didn't get to come over because of all the snow. We had a level 3 snow emergency and if people were caught on the road they were fined. Hah great fun! I do love snow! Seriously, I do.
I heart my Amadeo. :D
And now...I'm off. There's a Changing Rooms marathon on. Excuse me folks. Good day.
Posted by Nikalyn at 02:11 PM | Comments (3)
February 15, 2003
My paper heart will bleed
She's right you know? I should keep away. I kept refusing because of my friends in there. I tried to coexist but its plain to see that he doesn't want me there. I've just been kidding myself it seems. He's the more popular one, he's been there longer. It's his turf and I'm out of my league. Now that he's back I can't hold a candle to him. I'm sorry if I seem to be letting you guys down but its for the best.
This is cryptic. It always is. My messages always come in this style.
You can find me here. This place, that I call home. If anyone asks about me in there or if you start noticing my absence, you will know where to find me. I can always be found here. I will miss a lot of people, but if they ever cared about me they will catch on and contact me further through other means than the chat. I have email, I have aim, I have msn. I'm easily accessible. If all of them really care, they will find a way to hear from me again.
I really didn't want it to come to this. But she is right. It will be for the best. It's time for a new beginning, a brand new image. I don't need to dwell anymore. Out of sight, out of mind they say.
It's time for me to reinvent myself...
Posted by Nikalyn at 03:11 PM | Comments (8)
February 14, 2003
My song
Errr should I say Jess' song? Hehehe. Anyway, I just wanted to point out that the song that my voice was included in is now downloadable. I'm gonna try to get channel peeps to put it as a topic in LG cause I know some people wanted to hear it that don't visit my blog. But for those who come here and wanted to hear the song I've been talking so much about, here's the address where you can get the song at:
http://www.space-bot.com/dualdimension/
Its the second song on there. Yes it is a pretty long song so...the file might be large. I'm not sure. I am the voice in the background by the way. ;)
I hope you guys like it.
Enjoy!
Posted by Nikalyn at 03:43 PM | Comments (2)
Merry Valentine's Day
Merry V-Day everyone. I wish I had someone to praise me with presents today. :(
Oh well. Going out with the girls tonight to dinner and to see the Recruit. I guess I can just imagine that Collin loves me. hehehehe.
Hope you all have fun today!
Posted by Nikalyn at 09:44 AM | Comments (5)
February 11, 2003
A Melancholy Reflection Of Once Was
Biannual and annual stats
They made me sad.
Sorry...I'm only human.
Biannual
Nikalyn
Last talked: 31 Dec 2002 19:22
Visits: 638
Status: Half-Operator
Lines: 15047
Active days: 88/184
Average lines per day: 171
Average letters per line: 16.7
Has given OPs 1 times
Has been kicked out 2 times
Number of descriptions: 5463
Question ratio: 8.9%
Exclamation ratio: 5.4%
Number of nicks used: 97
Chats most with:
Dilandou
Vex
osmaker
Admiral_Justin
mouse
Chat partners
People who talk most to each other
1 Admiral_Justin Mike
2 Admiral_Justin osmaker
3 Dilandou Vex
4 Dilandou Nikalyn
5 Mike osmaker
6 foofy osmaker
7 flatrabbit mouse
8 TeddGCM Vex
9 osmaker Vex
10 flatrabbit Vex
Annual
Nikalyn
Last talked: 31 Dec 2002 19:22
Visits: 1095
Status: Half-Operator
Lines: 31230
Active days: 173/365
Average lines per day: 181
Average letters per line: 16.5
Has given OPs 3 times
Has kicked out 1 people
Has been kicked out 4 times
Number of descriptions: 12949
Question ratio: 8.7%
Exclamation ratio: 8.0%
Conversations killed: 1
Number of nicks used: 287
Chats most with:
Dilandou
GeekGrrl
LazerFX
milbertus
Freekie
Chat partners
People who talk most to each other:
1 GeekGrrl milbertus
2 foofy osmaker
3 Dilandou LazerFX
4 Dilandou Nikalyn
5 GeekGrrl foofy
6 Dilandou Vex
7 foofy mouse^
8 Admiral_Justin osmaker
9 GeekGrrl Mike``
10 GeekGrrl `Siren`
What happened to those good ol days?
Now everything is screwed beyond recognition and all those that were your friend back then aren't anymore. They occasionally say a brief hello or wave but don't care at all about your life. Everyone is too busy now. Too busy for you and caught up in their own lives. Not that I blame them however. People have came and went without a trace. I feel so alone now...back then I felt like someone, like I fit in and had so many people who cared about me. Now I'm alone, now I'm forgotten and just a mere statistic on a computer screen.
Maybe that's what I was before...just a name, nothing more.
Bah...
"Once I found happiness in this pixel paradise of mine..."
Posted by Nikalyn at 03:30 PM | Comments (11)
February 10, 2003
Ruining my life, that's what you seem best at
Grrrrrrrrrrr
He's never gonna go away again is he? Damn it. Ignore works beautifully though. Still doesn't erase memories or months of hurt. Just ignore, just ignore.
*takes deep breath*
Okay!
On with entry...
Today it is cold. It snowed but its not sticking. Snow is pretty and snow is good but if it doesn't stick then its not helping me any. Selfish? Yes, sometimes. Ah the only person you can fully depend on in this world is yourself and sometimes you can't even depend on them.
I'm such a depressing person. However, its me. And you love me, right? Hrm. I'll just keep telling myself that.
School was okay. Blah. I had yet another Shakespeare test. It was easy to bs the whole thing. ;) And then, a great thing happened. The math test that was scheduled for today was cancelled! Yay! Made my day. I despise math. Hrm we finished watching Black Hawk Down today in Global issues. I guess it was an alright movie but I seriously cannot get into war movies. Seriously, this was my thought process through this movie.
"Bang, Bang."
"Orlando Bloom, Ewan McGregor."
"Why does he not have an accent? Gay blades."
"Bang, Bang, Bang."
"Political shit. Boredom."
"Bang, Bang, Explosion, Bang."
"Wussy ass Orlando falls from plane."
"Bang, Bang, Bang, dead people, bang."
"Bang, Bang. Tear, Bang, The End."
Seriously. Maybe I have some kind of ADD. *chuckles*
I did get a perfect score on my World Lit essay test. 8 pages long thank you. I wrote 8 pages in 40 minutes...hehehe. It sucked. But the hard work paid off. :) I was very happy.
You know, I've noticed this before but...there does seem to be a trend with this whole "Let's start our band's name with 'the'" trend. Notice how many of these bands have found theirselves a home on my winamp playlist.
~The White Stripes
~The Calling
~The Streets
~The Used
~The Exies
~The Ataris
~The Cure (Lynz's song)
~The Vines
There does seem to be a trend eh?
"Have you ever been left home alone and then said to yourself, "I'm gonna be ghetto and listen to my music loud!!" so you do, and you're having fun, but then you get a headache and end up turning it down...then you get so annoyed with yourself cause it seems like you forgot how to rock?"
---Me, regarding my loss of hardcoredom.
I thought it was funny...hehehe
I'm a dork though.
Posted by Nikalyn at 05:29 PM | Comments (3)
Jess Timberlake
My convo with Jess regarding naming the song we did together...
Hilarity ensues...
MasterFrodoLives: yeah well...I would if it was a normal song...but I've never named a song without words
Jess Coffman 10: umm k
MasterFrodoLives: if it was me...I'd name it something dreamer just cause I have a whole dark dreamer theme on my page
MasterFrodoLives: hehehe
MasterFrodoLives: but
MasterFrodoLives: it doesnt really go with the song
MasterFrodoLives: doesnt sound dark
Jess Coffman 10: yea
Jess Coffman 10: so what you wanna do?
MasterFrodoLives: so you name it
MasterFrodoLives: give me names and I'll tell you if I like it
MasterFrodoLives: I'll be the last say
Jess Coffman 10: alright
Jess Coffman 10: cry me a river
Jess Coffman 10: that work? lol
MasterFrodoLives: LMAO
MasterFrodoLives: you serious?
Jess Coffman 10: no
MasterFrodoLives: cause....if you are....
MasterFrodoLives: lol
MasterFrodoLives: good!
Jess Coffman 10: lol
MasterFrodoLives: omg
MasterFrodoLives: I'm so posting that
Jess Coffman 10: "tell me you need me, when you call me, on the phone. turn to cry, cry me a river, cry me a river"
MasterFrodoLives: lmao
MasterFrodoLives: lol
MasterFrodoLives: You're such a dork
Jess Coffman 10: dont act like you dont know ti
Jess Coffman 10: *it
Jess Coffman 10: I already know
MasterFrodoLives: hahahaha
MasterFrodoLives: but seriously....no.
MasterFrodoLives: Next title!
MasterFrodoLives: lol
Jess Coffman 10: shucks
Jess Coffman 10: wow, the damage is done
Jess Coffman 10: well lemme think
MasterFrodoLives: omg
MasterFrodoLives: it just keeps getting worse!
MasterFrodoLives: lol
Jess Coffman 10: lol
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:14 PM | Comments (2)
February 07, 2003
Am I losing the funny?
(Yardbomb) ARGH
(Yardbomb) I did it again
(Nikalyn) you played with my heart?
(Nikalyn) and got lost in the game?
(Nikalyn) oh baby baby?
! Nikalyn laughs at herself
*crickets chirp*
(Nikalyn) at least I got my joke
No one laughed....
Well I thought it was funny!!!
Bah.
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:56 PM | Comments (8)
FINA-FUCKING-LLY!!!!!
4 inches of snow....and we still had school. FUCKING COMMIES! So I sat here and cussed and complained about my fucking stupid ass school. They're so stupid. I hate them. They're so strict and stupid and don't care one bit about their damn students. Seriously, if I had to go today I was gonna fall down and break a leg in protest. Thats how bad it is outside! But the school redeemed itself and just now cancelled school. I was seriously going to go off when I got to school if I was forced to go in this. Its one of those days you're like....look snow...ain't going outside today! Mom got pissed at me because I was complaining about school not being closed. She said whether I went to school or not today didn't matter. Yes, it does matter because it shows how stupid our school system is and how much they don't care about their students. Things like that just annoy me alot. Grrrr.
BAH!
ANyways, I'm not so pissed now.
I probably won't go back to bed though. The issue wasn't that I was tired...well yeah I am tired...but that wasn't why I wanted to stay home. I wanted to stay home because I really didn't want to go out in all this weather. Plus I had tests today that I didn't study for...*grins*
Hurray for snow days! Boo for stupid gay ass school districts making me suffer and get myself worked up for the last hour and a half!!!
Posted by Nikalyn at 07:18 AM | Comments (2)
February 06, 2003
Brrrrrrrrrr!
Its cold outside. Errrr...or maybe its just cold down here? Heat rises, I'm in the basement...go figure. Its "apparently" 37 outside. But I think weather.com lies. Lies I tell you!! They never have the right weather in my opinion. Ack. I hate liars...
*shivers*
Speaking of liars! Yeah...hrm...never mind. I'll just shut up.
Anyway, its cold and my game has been on pause for about a half hour so I will make this short...
It's supposed to snow during the night! Major yay! Maybe no school tomorrow? Or at least a delay? Here's hoping. :)
I've written a few poems over the last couple of weeks but I never posted them on here, usually if I write new ones I just post them directly onto my poems journal. *Points down to link* But I really like this poem so I decided I would post it.
Perpetuity
Void of all colour, in an absence of light.
There is silence.
No merry songs sang nor word uttered.
This is eternity.
Surrounded by nothing.
There is nothing.
Uncertainty racks my bruised shell.
What is this place before me?
Paralyzed, motionless, my limbs show no movement.
Stale air contaminates all around me.
I can’t breathe.
The darkness takes me captive
I crumble under its spell.
Finally I’ve found what I’ve spent my whole life looking for.
My freedom, my solace, my acceptance.
This is my eternity.
This is my forever.
Out of the darkness a whole new kind of dream emerges..
Posted by Nikalyn at 04:37 PM | Comments (2)
February 05, 2003
Too much thinking makes Nik's head hurt
Bah. I'm tired. My head hurts.... I had two tests today. Shakespeare and World Literature. Both which were 3 question essay tests...meaning? LOTS OF FING WRITING. The Shakespeare exam wasn't that bad. I had the stuff down. It ended up being about 2 pages long. The world lit paper however too a lot out of me. I have NO idea what I said however, I just rambled. Hopefully I did well on it though.
But now my head hurts...
And I've come to the conclusion that I am a video game junkie. I play the damn game every free minute...its quite sad. I'm actually only online now because I was looking up something for it.
Hehehe...I'm a dork.
Sorry I haven't written anyone comments lately. I just noticed that I haven't visited anyone's blogs...it was mainly because I was on strike. But I will start going again when I pull myself away from the game.
Okay, I'm gonna go. Loki is licking me. Grrrr...bad kitty. No kitty my pot pie!!!
Posted by Nikalyn at 05:51 PM | Comments (4)
February 04, 2003
I wish you'd go away and burn
Harsh? Yes, I guess so. But his mere presence sends all these shots of pain and hurt and then hate through my body. I don't want to hear him talk, I don't want to see his name, I don't want anything to do with it. He needs to go away again and not come back. He said the damn place sucked anyway. Maybe he should make his own damn chat on a DIFFERENT server, far, far away from me.
*growls a growl that starts out loud but ends up whimpery* I hate when people ruin me.
A weird thing I was told today...Johnny Cash did a cover of "Hurt" by Nine Inch Nails. Hrm. What a fucking wrong combo there. I downloaded it of course. Just cause thats one of my favorite NIN songs and I'm a huge fan. Its....odd. I mean, the song is about hurting yourself to see if you're real...umm...just an odd thing to have a country singer sing about. Hrm...
I seriously want to kill him. Grrrrrrrrrr.
Are my messages getting too cryptic in here? lol.
Sorry...he just seriously gets to me. I hate ex's! Maybe they should go back to their perfect existance and leave mine alone. At least he doesn't talk when I'm in there....he's on block...but he always changes his name so...it doesnt help. I need the thing where I block his ip. *ponders*
Anyway, back to reality. Today was a close to perfect day. Got a 95 on my Advanced Comp paper. *grins* Then I got a 91 on my Physics test. W00t! 2 points are still pending however so I might have a 93. *grins larger* Then I came home and here my lazy booty sits, playing Suikoden 3.
God, I'm so obsessed.
I love it though. Its so cute! :D
Too bad the guy I'm playing with at the moment sucks alot...maybe I should be leveling him up right now? Errr...no cause I felt the need to vent right now. But yeah, I needed to do something for 30 minutes because in my game I need money. And in order to get big bucks I have to play lottery. And the lottery takes 30 or so to turn over...grrrr.
Plus, now I don't want to leave LG. I get paranoid whenever he is in there. I think he'll talk about me right after I leave. Hrm...wonder if he knows I have him on block. I imagine he does.
Not that he cares.
Grrrrrrrrrrr.
And the ONE time I'm online Jess is fing away! Damn you, you sexy little scamp!
Okay, need to end this on a happy note.
Think, Nik....happy note...happy note....*ponders again*
Hey! I just won 63,000 dollars on the lottery!!
Posted by Nikalyn at 05:19 PM | Comments (3)
February 03, 2003
So pretty!!
Need I say more?
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:04 AM | Comments (3)
February 02, 2003
Just a little reminder
Okay...just a little update because I haven't blogged lately.
Umm...got a new video game...that's where most my time this weekend has went. It rocks. I'm addicted. Things are good.
I just came on here to look up how to do a certain thing...amazingly it did it automatically and so I came on for nothing...*grrs*
I didn't do my homework nor study. Go slackers!
Lynz spent the night this weekend...like always.
Yeah...I think I have some kind of sleep disorder because I'm ALWAYS sleepy.
Okay...I'm tired...I'm boring...and most of you don't want to hear me ramble.
Night night. :)
Posted by Nikalyn at 10:11 PM | Comments (3)