I can't sleep anymore. And when I do it's plagued with unknown nightmares. This tells the story of my fight with myself to fall into unconsciousness.

The darkest of dreams have haunted me as of late
And I have fallen into them without resistance
My eyes have long grown heavy
Breathing scarcely audible amidst the whirring of the fan blades
The solace I yearn to reach does not come with ease

I long to shut out this reality and live amid another
A place where you'd exist and never thought of leaving me behind
A place where you'd view me bathed in a loving light
A place where darkness has no power
A place of love
And in this place you would love me...

But this destination is just out of reach
Stretching with fingers wide, I try to touch its vast boundaries
I always fall short
Cries descend upon newly deafened ears
And I fail, like always.

I do not journey to this far away land of perfection
My feet stay cemented to the floor of this fucking wasteland I call life
Where each day becomes more meaningless than the one before
And monotony a constant companion

Tossing and turning in this queen sized casket
I dwell on everything
Every bad thought, feeling, event floods my brain
And I am helpless against them
I pray for death
Scream for death
Anything to cease this clutter coursing through my body
Anything to erase this life
Anything to find release