[mood|pissed off]

To settle the argument of someone I thought I loved..

I can’t believe it.
I can’t believe that it is true.
The one I thought I loved could make me despise every fucking thing they do.
To find out that you felt I was meaningless.
To discover that you faked every goddamn thing you did
You disgust me.
You make me wonder why I felt for you.
You’re not the same man I knew.
Just a pitiful shell of deception and lies.
Who are you?
When you look in the mirror do you even know?
Can you recognize your own face in the crowd?
I can’t find you.
You’re too far lost.
I hate you.
For two years I could never fathom saying those words to you.
After everything you fucking did to me.
Never once did I hate you.
Now I hate you.
I despise you.
I damn every tear that I shed for you.
I wish I could take back every “I love you” I said to you.
For I said them with my heart.
You said them with your cock.
Two years I can never get back.
Two years I could have been finding myself.
Wasted…
Wasted on you.
I give you no pity.
Your situation, you made yourself.
All your lies, your false promises, your betrayal.
YOUR GOD DAMN LIES
Can you even say the truth?
Do you even know what it is?
What the hell was I?
That you could just dismiss me so quickly.
Did you even shed a tear?
Or feel a shred of conscience for one second?
NO
Because you asked out my best friend the same week.
You BASTARD
What goes on in that head?
Why the hell can’t you be happy?
God knows I tried for two god damn years.
So shut the fuck up.
Saying that you have never been happy
No one loves you.
No one cares about you
FUCK YOU.
Wake the fuck up.
I gave you a chance.
I gave you love
YOU fucked it up
YOU deserve everything you get
YOU are nothing
I wish I could take it all back.
I wish I could take it all fucking back..
Save your pity for someone who cares…